Leaving The Labyrinth of Shadows

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I flew over a Body of Water
Cedar Seeds in a pouch were on my chest

I bowed to My Old dream from time before I was born

Am I returning to my Ancient Home?

I entered a world of tears...
Cried by Children of Earth
I heared songs of pain and terror

I have not met many spaces to nourish myself as much
And I forgot how to speak language of Spirits

That were events of a surface


For seven days I was asked to leave all my believes and selves and enter a circle of a ceremony
For seven days I stayed in a fiery steam to meet own borders and let tight layers away

After seven days I heared
That I have not completed my Joruney with The Father
That my Wounds are still ones that keep me away from my Power



After some time a healer invited me to her space
She asked me a question

Through that I have entered a deepest chamber in my Labyrinth of Shadows
I have seen I was married to the Dark Father in a strange marriage of domination and control

With help of  a Healer I ended that relationship

I said goodbye to the Dark Man

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I am walking a New Path.....

Learning to speak Anew....
..and write New Poems....

A flesh of Love

He put a piece of his own flesh into her mouth

It was a sacred communion

In that moment all times met
All worlds whirled together
They blended own particles into a world that never existed before

With her tongue she was examining all stories that dream in cells of his flesh
He gave her his fire and Sun that slept in His soul

She never dreamt of such moment
Of how a man can fill body and soul of a woman
She thought stories like this are old forgotten legends


In that moment all went still and changed all

The one behind them

I have met you in my early years

You were my creator and my destroyer

I have met sharp blades that you have

I saw how they enter humans' minds

I was growing up right under your sight...

You taught me many things
You showed me expansion of mind
Encouraged me to explore

I didn't know the price I was to pay
And I escaped it when its time came

Your curse chased me all time after that
Your curse is my burden

Now I see all those you entered your blades in and I know

This is your final time

You need to let go
You need to let yourself expand
It is time

So we and you
We all will be free

Daughter of a running river

Water formed her body
Water plants became her hair

Stones became her bones

Sand became a color of her skin

She rose up when she was ready

She went into a human world

A guardian of a cave

Its claws were long and sharp
It was easy to fear them already from a distance

Powerful wings that could make fearful winds to scare any being in whole area that would try to approach The Cave

That was a Guardian of The Cave

The Cave was a Girl's soul
Inside there were winds  howling for Love
It was so empty as The Guardian was not letting anyone in

Inside the Cave there were paintings with images of Love
Lovers
Dreams

Yet a girl was to scared to make space for new ones and was scared to let someone in not to disturb a fragile area of deep levels of The Cave
She carried a memory of a betrayal and hurt

She often wanted to welcome guests who appeared in the area....yet the Guardian scared them away

It seemed if its role became more than protection
It started to scare away and so girl realized her Cave became so empty
Only winds were guests

She felt lost

She didn't want to be alone....

I honor my longings I honor my desires

I honor my longings
I honor my desires
 I observe and cherish them from chrysalis to butterfly...
And when they fly out from cocoon the tounge of a butterfly is my own tongue that touches nectars of flowers of life

I honor my longings
I honor my desires
 I sing when they die after a flight of so many colours..

Healing of a Lake

The Old Woman
She knows

The Older Sister
She warns

The Younger Sister
She carries sweetnes and play

The Caring Daughter
She supports

The Mother in Wholness
She loves and lets go

The Mature Lover
She gives and takes

The Healed Wild One
She never gives up....

The Wise Warriores
She gets to the point


The Great One
She carries them all...

I am a
Lake of a Soul

Transmutation of a poison into cure